Monday, February 6, 2017
Many people think suicide is selfish and I understand why they think that but I believe that's true. As a person who has attempted suicide in the past and has a bipolar son who also has attempted it, I can tell you it is hard to explain why we did it. The only thing I know is we get to a place in our life that all we want to do is escape unbearable mental pain. Depression is a filthy bitch and relentless in keeping a person down. There comes a moment in a suicidal person's pain they can't think of anything else but stopping the pain. I am not thinking of my family at this point or anyone else. That's where people say it is selfish. The problem is I'm not even thinking rationally about anything and just want the pain to END! It almost like I don't have a body anymore it's just a mind screaming at the top of its lungs at me to help it feel better.
If I do not get some help for the following things and soon, I don't think I can't take much more.
1. Fibromyalgia relief
2. Bulging disc, stenosis and arthritis in my neck
3. This migraine from Hell
4.Flashbacks and trauma crap
5. Coping with life in general
If you are reading this and area praying person, then please pray for me. For all of me, the littles, the middles and the bigs. We are suffering.