It's been awhile since I've wrote. Life has been very hectic lately. My blood results came back and I do not have rheumatoid arthritis but fibromyalgia. They have done many tests and this is what they came up with but I don't know how to feel. On a happier note, my blood tests all came back really good for the endocrinologist. I'm still anemic but my cholesterol and my a1c improved! I mean by a lot!! My thyroid is doing excellent and the Doctor knows it's the Paleo diet that is working :) I have lost 22 pounds and feel so much better and being off all the psych meds makes a world of difference!
In therapy we are all working on letting go of anger. I feel like I'm going to explode on people lately and I don't like the way it feels. My therapist wants me to throw eggs at a fence or something that will make an impact but I'm too scared of the idea of getting angry. I was never allowed to have that emotion and I don't want to lose control! I need to find an outlet of some sort, though, because carrying around this contained anger is not good for me or anyone else around me.
I have a friend staying with me who was in a horrible living environment and has been here for a month now. It's going okay but sometimes I find myself getting short with her. She also has fibromyalgia but prefers to huddle under a blanket in the dark all day whereas I will not let it control my life. She also does enemas every single day and her whole life revolves around her colon. It frustrates me! I don't understand that way of living. She gets upset if I spend money which she is unable to do because she is on disability and always has lived in poverty. It makes me upset when she makes comments about me spending money. I don't have to worry about finances. I lived that life a long time ago and now I have money to do what I want and I don't appreciate being reprimanded for how I live my life. She also knows nothing about technology and I find myself getting impatient with her because I'm used to people understanding computers and DVR's and phones and etc. Okay I'm done venting.