Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Sleeping is very hard to come by since my surgery. I am plagued by horrible nightmares all which revolve around ritual abuse. The dreams are so dark and disturbing and the sad part of is I can't always discern what is real and what is a dream anymore. On a slightly positive note Bob says my alters have been fighting back in my sleep. He said one of my alters was stabbing the Dad last night telling him "No! You can't hurt me! I will hurt you!" So that is one good sign. I am going to do all I can to make it to see my therapist next week. I cannot drive myself and I would really like my husband to take me. We will see what happens. In the interim I will try to grab catnaps when I can and try to think positively before falling asleep.