Monday, June 17, 2013
Once again....DID does not equal demon possession
Yesterday was a Satanic holiday and it explains a lot to why I was so scared and full of anxiety last night. It is a ritual named Corpus Christie and it is when the sacraments of Jesus are mocked. I had to take part in one of these rituals as a child and was forced to drink real blood and eat real flesh. It may seem unbelievable and I am not here to try to convince you what I say is real or not. I know what is and it happened. While I was drugged and terrified beyond belief horrible things took place that I cannot even put into words. My littles have these memories and I only share part of them. One thing I do want to stress is that I am sooooo sick and tired of religious dogma telling me that any kind of illness, no matter what kind, is either demonic or a lack of faith in Christ. What was done to me was traumatic, horrifying and unimaginable. I did not ask for it. I did not deserve it and for someone to say it is my lack of faith or being possessed is downright judgmental and wrong! I hurt so much and beg God and Jesus to help rid me of the pain that not only I suffer but my family does as a result of me hurting. Please erase the stigma of mental illness and realize that it is a horrible thing to live with and it doesn't help to have so called "Christians" laying guilt on us for what we cannot help. Yes, God heals all things but when a person needs medications or therapy those are here because God allowed them to exist to help us. God is a loving God and does not lay guilt trips on those He loves. HE is the ultimate judge and it doesn't matter what the world says. In the end it will be us facing God and allowing him to decide what our fate is. I know my faith in Christ is strong and have no fears of going to Hell. There are other people with mental illness that don't have that faith because of what people in their lives today have told them. Please know that God loves everyone. Your illness is not your fault. In some cases, such as DID, it was a very strategic and intelligent coping mechanism we had instinctively to survive. That is a gift from God in my opinion. Skeptics and religious fanatics say what you will but my God is living strong within me and your words cannot stop that.