Monday, June 17, 2013

Once again....DID does not equal demon possession

Yesterday was a Satanic holiday and it explains a lot to why I was so scared and full of anxiety last night. It is a ritual named Corpus Christie and it is when the sacraments of Jesus are mocked. I had to take part in one of these rituals as a child and was forced to drink real blood and eat real flesh. It may seem unbelievable and I am not here to try to convince you what I say is real or not. I know what is and it happened. While I was drugged and terrified beyond belief horrible things took place that I cannot even put into words. My littles have these memories and I only share part of them. One thing I do want to stress is that I am sooooo sick and tired of religious dogma telling me that any kind of illness, no matter what kind, is either demonic or a lack of faith in Christ. What was done to me was traumatic, horrifying and unimaginable. I did not ask for it. I did not deserve it and for someone to say it is my lack of faith or being possessed is downright judgmental and wrong! I hurt so much and beg God and Jesus to help rid me of the pain that not only I suffer but my family does as a result of me hurting. Please erase the stigma of mental illness and realize that it is a horrible thing to live with and it doesn't help to have so called "Christians" laying guilt on us for what we cannot help. Yes, God heals all things but when a person needs medications or therapy those are here because God allowed them to exist to help us. God is a loving God and does not lay guilt trips on those He loves. HE is the ultimate judge and it doesn't matter what the world says. In the end it will be us facing God and allowing him to decide what our fate is. I know my faith in Christ is strong and have no fears of going to Hell. There are other people with mental illness that don't have that faith because of what people in their lives today have told them. Please know that God loves everyone. Your illness is not your fault. In some cases, such as DID, it was a very strategic and intelligent coping mechanism we had instinctively to survive. That is a gift from God in my opinion. Skeptics and religious fanatics say what you will but my God is living strong within me and your words cannot stop that.

5 comments:

  1. Stand strong, Sherry. You know what you experienced and the nature of your God.
    hugs

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  2. I so totally agree with you. It is so sickening and angers me so much about "Christians' that blame us or say we have not enough faith or worse that we are possessed!!! I have personally experienced all of these. I fight for the rights of mentally ill people and against the myths and stigmas that are attached to all of us like you said through no fault of our own. Isn't it enough that we suffered horrific abuses in the first place, have to relive the pain when the memories come and then have people condemn us?!!! I use my beauty pageant platform "All People are of Value and Worth!" to share with as many people as possible that we are not monsters and not like most media portrays us and we definitely have value and worth as God did not make any junk!!! There are people who made horrible decisions and became horrible abusers sometimes due to their own abuses known or unknown but they too were born with value and worth and have that seed buried deep within them somewhere. Society seeks to tear up everyone's self esteem in every way imagineable and lie to us that we have no value and worth unless - we have tons of money, the best job,house,car, kids, vacations and bodies and on and on ad nauseum. I am a born again believer and I know I am going to heaven one day yes I too will stand at the throne of judgement for all I say and do or said and did but I choose to judge myself now and ask for forgiveness, the bible promises us that God remembers our sin no more once it is forgiven!!! Hang in there <3

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  3. Very well said! Thank you for your support :)

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  4. It makes me mad that people are trying to blame mental illness--which cannot be helped--on the fact that you lack belief or that you are possessed. It just goes to show you just how some people are these days.

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