Wednesday, March 27, 2013
It's going to get crowded even more
My therapist doesn't buy that there are only 25 of us. She said she's been doing this for a very long time and she can tell that I have more little's and they just haven't surfaced yet. What?! NO! I can't stand the thought of having more. She said if I only had 25 alters I would not have survived. She said the traumas I've been through and the age it started is when most personalities are developed. I have a feeling she is right and I have been in denial about it. She said the more I try to fight and control the situation inside the more tired, sick and chaotic I become. I think we will be exploring the Labyrinth thoroughly to see what is there and who could be there. Every time I go to the Labyrinth it is a frightening experience and I become flooded with memories and they play all around me like a movie. This therapist knows how to guide me very well and I feel safe but yet I have high anxiety about everything.I'm getting a huge headache and pressure in my head at the moment. My T taught me a trick to stop that. I need to draw an 8 on the back of my head and neck over and over until it goes away. I forget what she said about how that helps but it does!