I am a mean girl. I have always been a mean girl. I don't know why I can't be nice? I do okay for awhile and then I always end up hurtful, hateful and mean. I was all for for going into the hospital last night when Bob suggested it but then I know the history of this hospital I'd be going to and it isn't pretty. He stayed up all night (until 5:00am) to keep everyone safe from me. I so wanted to throw it all away and bring everyone down with me. I verbally abused Bob for hours and hurt his heart and at the time I didn't care. I hurt the daughter's feelings.....again. I basically am disliked by all and I guess I'm destined to remain the mean, bad girl. I hope the new therapist can help me or else what is the point of life?