Wednesday, January 23, 2013
An unorganized life
I feel overwhelmed today. I got nothing accomplished because I had another one of my headaches and the cedar/juniper pollen is kicking my butt so I feel so sick. I need to take care of my house but am so unmotivated and when you aren't feeling well it demotivates a person even more so. I grew up in such chaos and never had household responsibilities so at the age of 45 I'm wondering if it is too late for me? One of my friends has offered to help teach me organizational skills and want to practice with me because she want to do this for a living. The problem I have is keeping thing organized once it happens. I feel stressed out and I always cry like a baby when I am cleaning because it is so much for me to take in. I want quietness in my mind and a calm to take over so I can focus. I never claimed to be June Cleaver or Carol Brady when it comes to homemaking! I used to be a great mom, and housewife when the kids were small. I got burned out on that within years. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want my friends or mother-in-law to come over because it's such a disaster here. I think I will go back to Flylady.com and see if she can help. I'm lost. Maybe the new therapist can help Andrea tap into her military skills and we can accomplish something. Feeling tired so much doesn't help me want to go and scrub floors and toilets I can tell you that much!