Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Goodbye cruel world... I wish
Sick of it. Sick of it all. I'm tired of being tired all of the time. The doctors can't find anything wrong with me except my thyroid and anemia to blame. I just want to be in bed all of the time. It consumes me from morning to night. It's all I think of. What is wrong with me? Why can't I get out of bed in the daylight and function? I am so scared at night and all my alters are super aware at night about danger and don't go to sleep until around 5:30-6:00 am and then I sleep until noon or later and wake up feeling so bad. I don't want to live like this anymore. This is no life. What the hell! Who wakes up wanting to go back to bed all day long? I know depression can make you sleep more but this is ridiculous. I am so close to calling it quits on life it's not even funny. If I didn't have God in my life I'd of been gone a long time ago. I'm too much of a chicken to do anything. But my mind has been trying of think of other ways. I am so upset I don't even know what to do anymore. I'm sick of it all.