Friday, September 21, 2012


The time has now come. All of my children are now married and have moved out. It is just my husband and myself in this big house. So much has changed in such a short time period of time that I need to take some deep breaths to catch up. I also have a chipped elbow bone and tendinitis in my left leg so I'm hobbling around on one crutch and have an arm sling. It has been an interesting month of September to say the least.  Today would have been my Step-Dad's 69th birthday. I miss him so much and can't believe that 2 years have passed already. Life. Why must it happen so quickly? But when things are terrible in life it tends to drag slowly. I guess I could look at time flying as a blessing but I wish I could slow this aging thing down! It seems like yesterday when I met my husband in the dorm in Germany. Now we look at each other and can't help but notice fine lines and wrinkles, silver hairs here and there and wonder where did the time go? I guess I can be positive or be depressed about everything but I am striving to be hopeful and curious about my next phase of life. I do wonder how my DID will be when I'm in my 80's. I hope it is all calmed down and life is stable by then! I just know that I need to die before my husband because I couldn't handle him being gone. He is much stronger than I am. I am strong but my heart is too attached to him.

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