Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Depression=Anger without enthusiasm

I am struggling a bit today. Lost a good online friend recently to suicide, my dog of 15 years had to be put to sleep and my daughter is going to be leaving home as she is getting married next week. I feel terribly alone suddenly. I wish I could understand how life works better. I know there are lessons to be learned from every situation but sometimes it's hard to know what those lessons are exactly teaching me. My Psychiatrist wants me to figure out what I am going to do in this next phase of life. I honestly don't know what that's going to be and that scares me and saddens me at the same time. I know I have to get up everyday and face life or I will spend my days sleeping and accomplishing nothing. If any of you have depression you know how hard it is to get your feet on the floor everyday. I need support and something to look forward to each day. I keep getting slammed by life events and that just adds more heaviness to the depression I have. I need to figure things out real quick!