Tuesday, April 10, 2012
I feel a tad lonely lately. Sure, I have family around me and lots of insiders to talk to but I miss having a best friend. I had a best friend for over 22 years and then she found a different life than we had before and only talks to me occasionally. Is it wrong to feel resentment towards her a little bit? She said she would always be a part of my life and now is basically absent except if I contact her on Facebook. We used to be around each other so much and were like sisters. We only had one big fight and we made up right away. I was there when she gave birth to her son. We cried together, laughed together and we understood each other. We were always there for each other any time of the day. I feel so lonely without her in my life. She just has become this person that is so far out of reach for me. I don't understand who she really is anymore. I have plenty of friends but no best friends. I want to go out and do things with someone other than my husband or daughter. I want someone to laugh with and share secrets with. I'm not trying to sound like I am on a pity party. I genuinely feel sad about this. When a person has DID it is hard to get close to others because most people don't get it or want to try to even understand us. I am a complicated person but am a very loyal friend to anyone who gives me the chance. I hope someday I can have a friend to hang out with and have fun with them. I love my husband dearly but I need a woman in my life to talk to. Does this make sense?