What is wrong with me? I have everything in life that would make a person happy yet right now I'm feeling so melancholy. I am uncertain if some of my alters may be dealing with something specific at the moment. No one is telling me anything. It seems like life is just flying by and I can't catch hold of it. I'd prefer to spend my free time sleeping. I see my PDoc on Wednesday so maybe I should tell her. It might be time for a meds change or something. I just hate having to take any meds but the result of me not taking any is disastrous.
One thing that might be triggering my sadness is seeing my 2 year old granddaughter running around so happy. Of course I want her to be VERY happy but my mind is sad because we missed that growing up. I want to make sure to live that all over with her. It's difficult to let the past go. If it was so easy I would have done it long ago.