Monday, February 6, 2012

What is wrong with me?

What is wrong with me? I have everything in life that would make a person happy yet right now I'm feeling so melancholy. I am uncertain if some of my alters may be dealing with something specific at the moment. No one is telling me anything. It seems like life is just flying by and I can't catch hold of it. I'd prefer to spend my free time sleeping. I see my PDoc on Wednesday so maybe I should tell her. It might be time for a meds change or something. I just hate having to take any meds but the result of me not taking any is disastrous.
One thing that might be triggering my sadness is seeing my 2 year old granddaughter running around so happy. Of course I want her to be VERY happy but my mind is sad because we missed that growing up. I want to make sure to live that all over with her. It's difficult to let the past go. If it was so easy I would have done it long ago.

1 comment:

  1. Sometimes it's tough seeing the unfairness of life. I'm sure there is some jealousy of Ahne's carefree childhood. Our intellect doesn't cancel out what we feel.
    Debra was able to let go of so much of her negative feelings by forgiving anyone who hurt her. I still work on letting go of things from my past.