Friday, February 17, 2012

Today I made a conscious decision .....

Today I made a conscious decision to forgive the guy who raped me in High School. I've held on to this hate for too long. I blamed myself for too many years. It's time to let it go! The hardest part to me forgiving him was his parting words to me after the rape and he was dropping me off at home. "You were the best I ever had." I stood in an ice cold shower for hours after that. Were there others he raped? Probably if he made a statement like that. But I no longer wish to let my mind dwell in that place in time anymore. I am moving on with my life. No, I don't condone what he did by forgiving him all I'm doing is taking the burden off of me. Harboring hate for so long is not healthy. He is the last of my abusers that I have forgiven. Life goes on.

3 comments:

  1. Congrats on getting through this one. It frees your heart and gives you the ability to focus more on the things that are important to you.
    Safe hugs

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  2. Thanks <3 It only took me 27 years to do it!

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  3. So true - forgiving is to take the burden off yourself. He doesn't know or care if you forgive him or not.

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