How can I feel so lonely yet have 24 insiders and a family outside to keep me company? I don't know why I feel so sad and so alone so much of the time. I go to RCA to be around people and it helps some but it all feels artificial and fake at times. So often I want to escape the noise and chaos which is my mind but then if things become to quiet I freak out. Tonight I feel very alone. My insiders are relatively quiet and there is no one else around. I feel very isolated. Why is it that I can be in a room of many people and feel that I'm the only one there? It's an unsettling feeling and a heart wrenching experience to go through. Does anyone else out there feel the way I do?
I have no real friends here. They are only acquaintances and people I only want to see on an occasional basis. I have no one but my daughter and husband to share things with but I often want to release them from my burdens by talking to someone outside our family. What is wrong with me that people don't want to be close to me?