Monday, May 30, 2011

Want a family unit

I so badly want my family to be close knit. I feel depressed lately that one son is in Hawaii and the other in Round Rock but hates my daughter. That being said there  is no warm fuzzy family get together's for us. I always wanted my family to be close and get along but it seems that the more I push for it the more it appears farther away from me.
I still am over-coming the fact that my son with bipolar had intentions of killing me last year and other issues with my other son lying to me about major life stuff. My daughter, thankfully, is very open and honest with my husband and I but I just want everyone to love each other, want to see each other and are happy for one another in each one's stage of life.
I hurt. I wanted it to be different in MY family. Why can't everyone put aside their differences and love each other? I grew up in a world of pain and hurtful feelings. I didn't want that for my own children. Did I fail as a mother? I know my DID had a lot to do with my children's outcome as adults but I never thought it would be this sad. Just needed to vent. Thanks.

1 comment:

  1. I am so sorry that your little family is not a as closed as you envisioned. But your children have not been abused and that should be a major source of pride and contentment for you. You have done the best you could have With what you had to work with.

    That is all you could have done.