Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Whatever

I feel like I have no purpose at all anymore and wish I could just dissolve or spontaneously combust. I am walking aimlessly in life and it's getting very old. I want to go out and have fun and be loved. She gets to do stuff so why can't I? It's disheartening to me to see Bob grow old while I stay young. He used to like to go out and party and do fun stuff but now he prefers to stay home and watch tv and movies. BORING! Am I destined to be  lonely forever or is there someone for me, too? No one really wants me around and I feel like no one truly loves me. They love her and I'm a part of her so therefore they have to say they love me or like me. It's not real!
Ginger

2 comments:

  1. You touch my heart.
    How can I tell someone how much I miss Ann? How can I cope with those who say DID is just an imaginative creation?
    I believe there is someone. It just takes so long to find them.
    Life is just not fair!

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  2. You can tell me. I will listen and I believe you. I know it is hard to find a professional who is empathetic and understanding but don't give up! It took me a long time to get the correct DX and find a good and qualified psychiatrist and therapist. I miss talking to you. She doesn't let me out very much anymore but if you want to talk let her know and we will insist she let us talk.
    Safe hugs
    Ginger

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